Today I had a busy day. I had to key in my class's marks and remarks by 2.30 pm but I didn't have many breaks to do it. Thank God, Mr Liu volunteered to key in the marks for me. I am so grateful to him. Thus I just had to work on the remarks.
After school, I stayed back to work on my Guides Initiative project. I managed to contact the vendor to find out a bit more abt the Self Defence course and I finally completed the template and sent it to Guides Hq. Now, I am awaiting their approval.
Then I rushed to pick my cousin, Don to send him for his tuition. I got home, bathed and then rushed out to pick Don again. After I have driven him home, I went to pick Russell. Russell went to the vet today to have his teeth cleaned. He also underwent an operation to remove two lumps on his body. When I picked him up at the clinic, he was already up and about. He even barked when he heard my voice. That was good news. However, when I saw his wound, I was really quite upset. It looked really scary and big. When I brought him home, I fed him his dinner and medicine and took him for a short walk. But he was rather weak so we brought him home shortly. As for Jobi, we spoke to the vet again and now the vet advised us to just leave Jobi alone and let him live out the rest of his life in peace. If we were to allow the vet to operate on him, it would be very painful for him and it would be a difficult recovery. Also, as his body would be weakened by the surgery, it may cause his cancer cells to fight back with more eagerness. So, my hubby and I decided to just let it be. Jobi is so happy now. His fur has all grown back and his appetite has returned. He is active and loves his daily walks and weekly walks to the parks. We would just let nature take its course and wish him well. I really pray that he would be hale and healthy for many years to come, In fact I wish all 3 of my dogs more happy doggy years to come.
Russell before the surgery on the bed we bought from Bangkok
Russell's wound
{ 10:58 PM }
On Sunday, my parents-in-law, sis-in-law, hubby and I went to Suntec City to visit the Singapore Garden Festival. It was really beautiful. Imagine two floors of flower and plant exhibits done up in the most creative, enchanting and beautiful way. I wish I were a bride again where I could take pics among the flowers. The exhibits were really creative and I had a magical evening. If you love flowers, you should visit the exhibition. Visit the website for more details.
http://www.singaporegardenfestival.com/
{ 12:17 AM }
My sis and cousin own a blog shop where they sell chic, stylish clothing at affordable prices. They are professional buyers and sellers. This is their job. They are not part-timers but are very committed about what they do. I know they often surf the internet to check out the latest trends and then they do what they love to do most : shopping even though it is for others. They have a lot of nice clothing but it's a pity that I can't fit into their clothes. If you are interested, you can visit their blogshop. But their clothes sell out pretty fast! :)
http://tracyeinny.livejournal.com/
{ 3:24 PM }
PRESENTING JOBI, MY BELOVED DOG
{ 7:07 PM }
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I received devastating news about my beloved dog, Jobi. As you all would know, I love my dogs. They are like my children. I had Jobi since he was 3 months old, all cute and chubby. Now his 12.
I brought him to the vet because I found that he was limping really badly on Sun. His paw was swollen and the lump looked scary. When the vet looked at it, he said it looked pretty bad. I told him that I found some black lumps on Jobi's body. Upon inspection, the vet confirmed my worst fears. They were no ordinary lumps. They were tumours. I was devastated and I could feel my tears welling up in my eyes. To make matters worse, all the tumours started to bleed yesterday. The vet checked Jobi's spleen and found another lump there.
The vet gave me two options. One was to operate on Jobi and have his tumours removed and while Jo was on the operating table, the vet would cut him up and see if there is any cancer or is the damage is great. If the damage is great, the vet would just sew him up and let things be. That would leave Jobi very weak from the surgery and aggravate the cancer cells. However, if the cancer has not spread and has only affected his spleen, the vet would just remove jo's spleen and he could live for a longer period of time. Also ,there are risks involved. Jo is already 12 years old and surgery is very dangerous for old dogs because they may just die on the operating table.
I was at a loss. By then I could not stop crying. Both options didn't seem to be solutions because they all carried with them a certain lethal amount of risks.
Everything was like a blur. I was very confused. I told the vet I just want to prolong Jo's life at any cost. I would do anything for him. The vet advised me to go ahead with the surgery. However, he did warn me of the risks involved. Since it was such a major decision, the vet gave me a week to decide. I was to consult my hubby and parents and decide what was best for Jobi.
When got home, I googled to find out more and found many other pet owners who were in the same predicament as me and felt consoled that most of their dogs survived the surgery. However, I was very saddened by the news. Everything when I am alone, I would think of Jobi and how much I love him, tear would just fall uncontrollably down my cheeks. Whenever, I think of the pain that he has to undergo and also the uncertainty of not knowing if he would survive., i feel so sick. I can't bear the pain. I can imagine how a mother feels when she learns that her child is seriously ill. I can't seem to brush away my trepidation and sadness. I really pray that everything would turn out well. Jobi is still very active. My hubby and I take my dogs to the park every weekend and Jo would go around socialising with all the other dogs. He is eating and sleeping well. I just can't believe that he is ill.
My hubby and I are going to pay the vet another visit as we have more questions to ask before we make up our minds.
Today, in class. I accidentally let slip about this matter when I was trying to explain the word
'devastated'. Some of the pupils were so insensitive. They passed such comments ' 12-year-old dog has lived enough' or ' is your dog still alive?' all insinuating that it is time for my dog to die. Some of them think it is very funny and cracked jokes at the expense of my dog. I tried to stay calm but I could not bear their taunts and I scolded them about how insensitive they could be. How would they feel if I had made fun of their loved ones? They shouldn't turn everything into a joke. There are some things in life which require one to be sensible, sensitive and serious. I told them they must learn to be more sensitive to people's feelings and should not poke fun at people's misery. If only they know, how upset I am about this matter and how much it hurts me whenever I think of JOBI.
{ 5:45 PM }
I think I am going mad as if The Incredible Hulk has possessed my body. I have been losing my cool and blowing my top more often. I guess I am anxious. The prelims are coming and I feel my pupils are still unprepared. I wish I could do more and that I have 48 hours in a day so that I can finish all my work. I need to mark and mark. I want to return all the assignments so that the pupils can get feedback on their work. But besides the marking, there is so much more to do! I have to plan lessons, attend meeetings, do administrative work, manage my cca and so much more.
Today was the straw that broke the camel's back. My class is generally more diligent and serious now but there are still a couple of boys who are still nonchalant and indifferent and they are so weak! When they fail and end up in ITE, they will cry but now they seem bent on making me cry! For the first time yesterday, when I shouted at a late-comer to my EC class, I felt a stabbing pain in my chest. It has never happened before. I am worried. It was painful! Today I really lost my cool and rebuked my class and gave them a good scolding. I felt sorry for our Korean guests who are here to study the way English is taught in SIngapore. They look uncomfortable but I was beyond any control. I felt like the Hulk and I was fully grown, with rippling muscles. I lashed out like never before; and there was the stabbing pain again. I thought I was going to die of a heart attack. Why should I bother anymore? I dunno why but this class really affects me a lot. Maybe I have grown to really love them like I have never done before. I could just turn a blind eye but I just can't . When I see them not doing their work,I can literally feel my blood boil!
However, like usual after I have cooled down from an emotional outburst, I feltl very embarrassed. I dunno how I am going to face my class tom. The hurt is still there and my poor class has to be screamed at when some were actually very well-behaved. Sigh. Something that soothed my frazzled soul was that many pupils actually smsed me to apologise on behalf of their classmates after the shelling. They were so thoughtful and understanding. I felt better but also a bit abashed. I was not a good role model. I lost control of my temper!
Now I am home but I can't forget the incident. Several teachers approached me and asked me about my 'screaming session' . I could feel my cheeks turn red. Sigh.. must learn to control control control but what to do... When I coax and cajole them to do their work, they turn a deaf ear to whatever I say. So they keep pushing my RED button and so I explode and today I really did. I felt like the Hulk plus Hellboy combined!!!!!
{ 6:44 PM }
We celebrated my granny's birthday last Sunday at SWA garden restaurant at Macpherson. It was a great gathering because my cousin, Jeremy and my aunt Jessie came back from USA. Jeremy is back to serve his NS for 2 years. Time to get fit!
All nine cousins.. only Jon and Eunice are MIA
Darren and me
Cheeky DOn Don
All the 'TUNGs'
my family with AH Ma
Jeremy is in white!
{ 11:47 PM }
Bangkok was fun! The food was great and cheap and the Thais were friendly and nice. I stayed at Courtyard Marriot, a lovely hotel where the service was great and the room was well-furnished and comfortable. I didn't buy much clothing because the sizes were too small and I am very BIG but I bought a lot of doggie stuff like dog beds which my dogs absolutely love. The beds are so cheap. They only cost about $12-$14 where in Singapore it cost about $45 to $50. I also bought dog leashes and harnesses which cost only $4.
{ 10:41 PM }
Darren and me
Cheeky DOn Don
All the 'TUNGs'
my family with AH Ma
Airport
check out the lovely fishes at a food court in Siam Paragon
To drop 15kg